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breaking out!

This past weekend was exactly what I needed. I've been in a bit of a slump lately. It was the most fun I've had in a long time. I ate with people I don't usually eat with, spent a day with people I don't usually hang out with, partied with people I didn't even know until that very night at a place I didn't even know existed. Completely refreshing.

I spent my Friday night at a party you wouldn't think to ever find me at with people you'd never guess I'd be with. I definitely feel like I let the party girl in me come out. Maybe I should give this alter ego a name. Suggestions? I pick Valerie. Haha, I don't know why. I know it's no Sasha Fierce, but whatevs! Anyhoo, the best part of my night was spent on the dance floor. My partner for the night taught me how to salsa & merengue (although, I probably looked like a drunken fool), and of course there was the good old-fashioned booty shakin' & stanky leggin' we all know and love. I was gettin' spun and dipped all over the place! I think every girl should be spun and dipped at least once in her life. I felt so free. Like all of my inhibitions had disappeared! Not a care in the world.

Felt like.. Chris Brown's Forever. Foreal.

It's you and me moving at the speed of light into eternity,
Tonight is the night to join me in the middle of ecstasy.
Feel the melody in the rhythm of the music around you, around you
I'm gonna take you there, I'm gonna take you there.
So don't be scared, I'm right here baby.
We can go anywhere, go anywhere.
But first it's your chance, take my hand, come with me.

It's like I've waited my whole life for this one night.
It's gonna be me you and the dance floor.
'cause we've only got one night
Double your pleasure
Double your fun and dance
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever on the dance floor

Now, I've realized (well, I already knew, but it became more clear) that there's so much out there that I need to explore. Especially in college. Time to (hopefully) expand my horizons and have as much fun as I can before this is all over! Carpe diem!

Cheers to more random, spontaneous nights (and days)! :)

my feet feel hot :(

I've been MIA from the whole blogging/fbnoting/tumblring thing for awhile now. Josh told me he misses it, so here i am! So since summer ended, I've just been busy with school, work, and as of recently, volleyball. Anyhoo, just some random thoughts and updates..

My classes aren't so bad (except finance, blaaarghh). It's the brass ring program that's keeping me busy! Brass ring is basically a class that also counts as an internship credit. You get put into teams of about 7-ish. Each team gets about 1-3 foreign exchange students. Mayyyn is there a cultural barrier. I took a dumb fb questionnaire recently (boredom kills), and it asked if I was impatient. I really thought I was just normal, but damn, I think I'm really impatient. Or maybe some people are just really good at getting under my skin.

Volleyball season is starting next week! I'm super excited! I've been skipping a ton of practices, so I've been using this week to catch up. Now, I am extremely sore from head to toe. Lewis told me I walk like a pregnant woman because I have to waddle -_-. Yeah, it's thaaaat bad. Well last night, Josh, Simon, and I were practicing super late @ Greg and joined in a scrimmage game. My proudest moment was saving the ball when it was 1 foot away from the ground with one arm. Best feeling ever! I know I'm like the least athletic person ever, but you better believe when I'm on that court, I'm bustin' my ass and giving it my all. You will never hear me complain about how much I'm hurting or how tired I am. I really believe I put my whole heart into the game, and it feels so good! I hope to keep this up after IMs are over. We're playing for ASR in the OPhiG tournament on Thursday @ 6pm! Come support! Our IM games are @ 9pm on Mondays! :) TASA SALAD! <3 <3

Anyone who watches One Tree Hill knows that Peyton thinks "People always leave." In my eyes, I think people never change. I have very little hope in people. I've always felt this way, but the idea has been reinforced harder and stronger than ever. Many of my beliefs are very extreme, but I feel I have right to believe so. Especially since people have yet to prove me wrong. I felt I was close once, but no, I was just being foolish. People don't change unless they themselves truly want that change. If you're going to date someone, don't try to change her/him. That'll never work. Maybe slightly, but never to where you'd like. Part of being with someone is accepting him/her for his/her faults. I don't see why people who are aware of certain attributes of their S.O. pre-dating insist on changing those attributes afterwards. NONSENSE!

Branching off of the last paragraph, I hate fake people. I hate when people portray themselves in a way where they know the world would fall in love with them. Why do you feel you have to put on this front? Sooner or later, your true colors come out. So quit telling the world your fake ass philosophies on life and love because everything you claim to stand for is a load of shit. Listen to Drake. "I am more than what you bargained for but nothing less than real." And Emerson. "It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great man is he who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude." Wise words from men of different times. The notion of staying real does not change.

So, Josh and I have come to the conclusion that Koreans are terrible with phones. Anyone who talks to/calls Josh knows he doesn't answer his phone worth shit! Not only does he not pick up calls, he doesn't answer text messages. I've yelled at him and cussed him out (with love, of course) on countless occasions, so he's actually gotten a bit better with it. Other Koreans include his mommma, his sister.. etc. He actually proposed this idea to me first, and I didn't believe it.. until SOMEBODY (ahem MatthewKim) decides to always respond to me hours later. Hmph, damn Koreans. :P

I realized I am constantly being played for a fool. I don't think I'm one to have many regrets. You live, you learn. That's all you can do. Even so, I'm really hoping this isn't one of those times.

Here's a song I really love. Definitely a great remix.

Travis Garland - Dead & Gone

I'm not the same person I used to be.
I'm moving on, It's just me.

Do you remember when you told me that
I'd never be good enough for anyone
And I wasn't worth your time,
Your energy.
And why didn't I listen then,
Why didn't I stand up for myself?
You made me believe,
That I was on the road to nowhere,
To nowhere.

And oh,
I was listening for way too long.
I should've known I'm way to strong,
That you'd just lead me on,
Lead me on.

And oh,
I was driving on that road to long.
Just tryna find my way back home,
The old me is dead and gone,
Dead and gone.

I've been thinking about all that we been trough,
Every place that you and me went to.
Thinking back on stupid little memories.
Thinking 'bout the times that my heart felt empty,
Wait! that was all the time,
Cause we just weren't fine, we fake it.
A true friend stabbed you in the front so tell me
Why my back is aching?
You can't say, you just choked
Hangman, there's your rope.
Dang, what's a five letter word for you
Well pick up and you got beat at your game.
Burn every bridge but you still see the smoke,
Tryna get across but you sank every boat.
You can smoke everyday of your life
But when I'm on the mic I'm a be more dope.

And oh,
I was listening for way too long.
I should've know I'm way to strong,
To let you just lead me on,
Lead me on.

See, you can love me for who I am,
Or hate me for who you think I am,
But the old me is dead and gone,
I'm moving on now.

Old me is dead and gone,
Dead and gone.

too much of a good thing.

I feel like I’m always being punished for being too laid back. It may seem as though I don’t care about anything, but I am far from apathetic. Don’t get it twisted.

There are just some things not worth bustin’ your blood vessels for. I strive for sustained happiness.

"doin' it big"

our rendition of the beatles’ famous ..

although we all kinda suck @ pretending to walk.

wanna see somebody get their ass beat nearly nekked?!

the funniest movie scene ever!

from This Christmas


good movie btw. :)

wtf? Backstreet Boys gone R&B!?

Yea, seriously, they really did. So I just copped the new Backstreet Boys album "This Is Us". So far, it's pretty tite. I can totally jam this in the car! They went a whole new direction. It sounds really good too! It's the type of stuff I've been listening to for awhile. The new BSB sounds like a cross between Chris Brown, Jesse McCartney, T-Pain, and Claude Kelly. I feel like they're confused. Identity crisis much?

Tracks:

1. Bye Bye Love
This sounds almost identical to Chris Brown's "Forever". I was about to start singin'
"It's like I've waited my whooole life for this one night.." This song is kinda funny. It's a break-up song but it's such a happy tune!

2. Fallen Angel

3. Bigger

4. Helpless

5. She's A Dream
They say "shawty" alot here haha. It reminds me of Jesse McCartney and T-Pain. I heard they worked with T-Pain also, so that may be where the influence is comin' in. They even said "pesos" instead of money.. kinda like how T-Pain said "fuego". This song sounds pretty T-Painish.. whooa, they use the auto-tune too at same parts. You'll hear it.

6. International

7. Masquerade

8. Hologram
This song was actually originally sung by Chris Brown and Dre! Still good though.

9. Shattered

10. What I Know Now
Produced by Claude Kelly and it totally sounds like it.

11. Straight Through My Heart
This one sounds extreme poppish and a litttttle like techno-ish, just a little.. Definitely old BSB comin' out. Not feelin' it. It's aiite.

we cannot ignore what our hearts yearn for

so at the beginning of the summer, i tried to brainwash myself to not want fatty foods. i would look at a chili cheese dog and not even want to devour it! it was working pretty damn well. i ate sandwiches and salads everyday. i tried to stay away from ultra greasy goodness. it lost some of its appeal! it was weird. but it worked! that changed when i went to california and said

"to hell with it all!"

now all i think about is food. liuliu even told me so this morning!

"all u ever think about it food."

i have a craving for chili cheese fries that just won't go away! right now, i really want some damn spaghetti! with sugar. mmmmmMmm. i usually don't crave spaghetti either but maaayn, it sounds like heaven right now haha. i think suppressing my love for delicious foods only made it come back harder and stronger! oooyy. but oddly, i've lost a couple pounds. what's going on?!

the moral of the story is.. follow your heart ♥ ♥

rainbow after a storm

i hate hate hate hate haaaaate arguments. they're so stupid! i never once got out of an argument and felt like it was significant or had a a good impact on me and/or the relationship. sure, everyone says you need to argue and shit like that to be healthy. but ARRRRGGHHH. i really hate arguments. i hate when you try to explain something (not even trying to fcking argue) over and over and over. and the person just keeps picking at the same thing over and over. the one thing you are trying to counter by explaining whatever the hell you're explaining. all this even though you have already taken semi-fault for whatever the fck happened. then it just gets overly frustrating. like you wanna rip off all the heads of your stuffed animals and maybe kick a few gerbils to outer space. oh the frustration. i am rather annoyed so i will switch gears.

on the semi-brighter side. marques houston's sunset video finally came out. he started filming this like 10 thousand years ago. it's such a cute song. it's about his ex-fiance jennifer freeman, who played Claire in my wife & kids. in the video, he even got some chick that looks like her. he's so sexy, i would never leave him. :)



i've kinda veered my focus from jamie foxx to marques houston for the time being. so far my favorite songs from him are circle, sunset, wonderful, beautiful you are (when he was with IMx), case of you, and that girl. i'm sure there's more, but those are the ones that come to mind. listen to circle. it's on the top right now. also btw, everyone needs to check out his 'naked' video. it's the freaking bomb-diggity! he's sooooo hawt!!!



omg, look @ that bod. remember that old cologne commercial called 'bod'? "I WANT YOUR BOD!" yeah, that pretty much sums it up.

so i've been working on the tasa scrapbook/comic book lately. it's been easier than an actual scrapbook for sure. previews are on my fb. i've gotten good comments about it, and i'm glad! this takes alotta work also. just seemed like it would be more creative than a regular scrapbook. no one's done a comic book for a club before! we'll be first! and it also makes us look awesome and super fun, which we are :).

summer is coming to an end. i'll be moving back to austin in approximately 2 weeks. oooyyy. moving's going to be a bitch, but luckily i got my bitches :) jk, josh and simon. teehee. <3 but yeah, they do make it easier. i know there's alotta shit i can't lift by myself! thank god for boy roomies! i'm not excited for buying books and getting back into the school groove. i am excited for the gym, volleyball, having freedom and whatnot. i'm sad that kevin won't be there :( i keep forgetting that he graduated already. SAAAD. :( i won't have my favorite bird. ahah -puuuuuurrr- :) every year has been completely different from the last and never ceased to surprise me. i'm up for some change.

i looked back at some of my old fb notes from freshman year earlier today. hell, i think i was quite entertaining. i wrote a note almost every single time i was trying to avoid schoolwork! it made me super nostalgic. first semester of college ever, i was a damn hermit crab. i didn't even much talk to my roomies. simon was always elsewhere and didn't come home til late. miguel was always doin' his own thing. my sleep and eat schedule were totally jacked, so i lost a ton of weight. i never did anything on the weekends, and i sure as hell did not live the college life the way i should've. that changed around the end of the semester when we were approaching winter when i met someone that took me away from all of that and pulled me to something greater. and it was for the best. after that, i finally put myself out there and started getting involved! i was finally having fun in college! good for me, yea?! :)

second semester was a million times better. i got super close with simon, josh, & john (ie. my bitches.. jk :) <3) by that time. i had also met winston, and he was like my bff4l! we hung out just about everyday and basically ate every single meal together. it was pretty fun and awesome. we would get out of school, eat, take a long ass nap, wake up, and eat again! this semester was also the time where the roomies would play poker almost everyday of the week despite our obligations to school. josh started skipping. tsk tsk joshie. memorable year in so many ways.


see?

this past year, my sophomore year, was eventful as well. i became an officer for TASA, but i was a damn good historian! i will prove it once the comic book is done :) i became more involved in clubs, played volleyball for TASA, was part of the TASA skit in VSA's date auction (yeah, i was a damn bush and a headlight, whateva), and made a ton more friends. i met kevin this year, a great friend btw! always been around for me when i'm in need or covered in hives, ya know the uge (usual)! i hate you for leaving btw. like i seriously hate you. seriously. don't doubt it. :) then came weekly beer pong, visits from a ton of out-of-towners, lots of eating, everythang! this is how my freshman year should've been like!

(i actually feel better now after thinking about all that..)

what's this next year going to be like?

No matter

I just had the longest day of my life. I woke up after 3 hours with the most extreme hangover from the depths of hell! The worst feeling ever.. I don't know if it was worth it, but I def did have fun even though part of the night is kinda blurry to me now. I do know that I get all ghetto bitch when I've got alcohol in my veins. Sorry guys. Haha. Now, it has been more than 24 hours later, and I'm just now recovering. Oyyyy, what a night.



hehe, this is funny. Luckily, I'm a bit better off than that.

Now, I've got alot on the brain and an old song stuck in my head. We've been dancing around this for so long. So what does that mean?

♥ ♥ Jamie Foxx - Superman

I'm in love with this song. I have to tell the world. It's so cute! How does he have some of the best lyrics I've ever heard?? Gaaaahh, I'd marry him.. -sigh-

lyrics:

I never seen a girl so sweet.
I swear I could love you for the rest of my days.
Now everytime I see your smile.
It's transferred back to my face.
I never met a girl that changed my mind.
I was gone with the wind, head in the sky.
I never met a girl like you.
You don't know what you do.

You made me superman.
When you laid in my arms.
And said this is where you belong.
You made me superman.
You could've had the world.
But you chose to be my girl.

I feel like superman.
Like superman.
Like superman.
Like like like.
I feel like superman.
Like superman.
Like superman.
Like like like. (yea)
I feel like superman. (yea)

Hey oh.

I've never been in such a place
Where I'm allowed just to be myself.
I know you go out of your way
And that's why I give you my last breath.
Oh I've faced the world.
Challenged the sea.
I love all of you.
But you love all of me.
I never met a girl like you.
You don't know what to do.

You made me superman.
When you laid in my arms.
And said this is where you belong.
You made me superman.
You could've had the world.
But you chose to be my girl.

I feel like superman.
Like superman.
Like superman.
Like like like.
I feel like superman.
Like superman.
Like superman.
Like like like. (yea)
I feel like superman. (yea)

Hey Oh.

Flying around the world with this love.
And I know in my heart
That there's nothing above.
So I'm flying around the world with our love.
And I know in my heart
That there's nothing above.

You made me superman.
When you laid in my arms.
And said this is where you belong.
You made me superman.
You could've had the world
But you chose to be my girl.

I feel like superman.
Like superman.
Like superman.
Like like like.
I feel like superman.
Like superman.
Like superman.
Like like like.

i'm not stopping till he's sorting the mikes from the ikes and the goods from the plenties

Today was a bad day turned good! I spent all day at home due to some agonizing cramps :( Felt like shit all day. Then the kiddies came over. I still felt cruddy, but I was a bit better. Babygirl drew me a cupcake picture and said

"I drew it for you so you can be happy!"

Then she wanted me to go to the living room to play, so she grabbed my hand and said

"I'll hold your hand because your stomach hurts."

SOOOO cute. Looove the kiddies. <3





We went to Bella Terra to get Jamba Juice and Pinkberry. Babygirl said to me

"Do you like Jamba Juice or frozen yogurt more? You always eat yogurt @ my grandma's house!"

because she's seen me eat vietnamese yogurt here a couple times, haha. She's so smart! Pinkberry's interesting. It's not self-serve, but it's super cute & pretty!


Then, IN-N-OUT!







Then, Yogurtland! It's pretty much the same concept we have over in Houston. I got a free t-shirt though! If you spend over $10, you get a free t-shirt :) We only spent 9 something, but the guy offered it anyway. They give really cute spoons too. They're all pink and green :). Not the super cheapo plastic either. I kept all of them to bring home. I'm such a tourist.





Can't wait for mooore shoppings and moooore eatings!!

Joe wanted some spotlight so..
he wanted to tell everyone that he loves them. (drunkass)

What is common courtesy?

Being courteous just means being polite, having manner and etiquette.
Like if you're eating dinner and you have kids. Common courtesy is not letting them run wild in the restaurant. Turning off your cell phone and not talking on the phone during a movie is also another common courtesy. Smoking next to someone with emphysema. Not courteous. Going into someone's house and shitting all over their bathroom walls (ex: Dumb and Dumber) without cleaning it up. Not courteous and definitely not tight.

So I was approached last night and the night before about how it's common courtesy to tell my friends that I'm leaving town. Telling you about my vacation plans is not in any way an act of goodwill. It does not affect you in any way. Does it make me rude if I don't tell my friends about all my plans? It's not like I'm trying to hide it. If you ask me, I'll tell you where I'm going, what I'm doing, whatever. I'll tell ya. I just don't think or talk about it. And apparently "keeping people around you informed is a considerate act." I don't think I'm any less considerate for not disclosing information about myself. I don't need people to tell me everything that's going on in their lives. And I don't think they're inconsiderate if they choose not to. It's their business. Who am I to tell my friends that they're any less courteous and considerate if they don't keep me informed on their lives?

I also don't think it's always fair to give the argument

"If it were me, I'd do..."

and ask the other person

"Why wouldn't you do the same?" (to an extent).

Simply because I'm not you. We're all different people. The things we do individually are our own choices, and we can't always expect the same thing out of others. Not everyone can be just like you, and you can't use yourself as a basis for how others should act. Forever ago, someone said to me

"I don't talk to girls because of you, you shouldn't talk to boys either."

HAAAAA! You trippin'. Straight trippin'. I never asked for that person to do that for me. He chose to do it on his own. And to expect the same thing from me??? HAAAAAAAAAAAA! You trippin'. That's kinda extreme, I know. But there have been other times where people have used that as an argument with me. Just sayin', it's not always fair.

I hate bratty people. The ones that think they could never be wrong and that everything they do is completely perfect. Fuck you, brats!

I'm angry @ the world. I really hate people. At this point, I really just want to be away from everyone, everything. I wanna meet new people. People who don't fucking cry about everything.

Games people play

I'm not in the best of moods. I'm frustrated. Ugh.. Some people just need to get over themselves.

Last week, I went to Austin for a few days to visit, get the rest of my stuff, and goto the Jamie Foxx concert! <3 I worked out and played volleyball almost everyday I was there! I wish I had a gym membership in Houston. If so, I'd be on those treadmills and ellipticals everyday! I hate running outside. I swear I get tired from heat exhaustion. :( It's like 100+ degrees outside! That's inhuman. I feel like such a bum now that I'm back in Houston. I've been back for a week, and I haven't done anything! Mostly just slept and hung around. That's one reason I'm excited for the next school year. So I can hit up greg! Woot!

What I have been doing is watching 90210! It's so good! I finished the entire first season in a couple days. It's depressing that I have to wait until September for the next episode :(. It's my new addiction. Screw One Tree Hill! I hear it's boring now anyway. I watched an episode of it today, and there's absolutely nothing going on! Everyone's just being annoying. It was better when they were in high school and immature. WATCH 90210, YALL!



I'm going to Cali soon. Usually people think of going to Cali as exciting, but it's rather boring for me :(. I don't have many cousins. I'm not close to any of them. I don't have anyone to hang out with. I don't get to go out to all the hot spots and check out the sceeeene. I hang out @ home and at family-friendly places with old family like my mom, my aunts, my uncle, and grandma. My cousin comes sometimes and brings her two little ones. It's just not that fun. They're super Vietnamese, and I feel like an outcast. Of course, I get crap about how I don't speak Vietnamese and yada yada, all that bullshit. 7pm is "too late to go anywhere". 12pm is "too late to wake up". I don't get to go around and try new California restaurants. I eat Vietnamese food @ home that I'm not really fond of. It's always the strange foods that we don't eat on a daily basis. My mom's cooking is better anyhow. Haha, it's sad, but everytime I goto Cali.. after a couple days pass, I start to crave American food soooo bad. I would probably kill for a cheeseburger and fries. A couple years ago, I saw a commercial for Carl's Jr's taco salad and asked my mom to take me to go get one. I wanna go outttt! And exploreeeee! And goto the places I see on The Hills! Haha. Silly, but true. I've never been close to family anyway. A whole week there feels like an eternity. I wanna go party, damnit! Sigh.. I'm just not looking forward to it.

I am looking forward to shopping @ H&M though! :) Whooppppie..

this is your brain on liz

just some lizness

01. i really like cilantro. realllly like it. i can eat a whole plate of it with my dinner if you give it to me. i'd probably eat more than 1 plate actually. mmm delicious. i ate spring rolls today, and i jam-packed them with ciltantro! i used to get jealous of Chocobo when i fed him cilantro. i'd always think

"damn this shit smells good!"

02. i'm downloading p90x right now. it'd probably be good for me since i'm quite the fat now. this is me&B's new challenge. we gotta look sexy for the next time we schlitter! i don't know if i'll actually do it, but i just wanna see what the hype is about. i've seen people's transformation videos on youtube, and it's crazyyyy! this one guy was a straight up chunky monkey. after 30 days, this fool had a 6pack! daaaaaaaaamn!
it suuuuuucks because it's taking for-freaking-ever. there's 18912492834923847928 parts to download. all big files. i can only download one file at a time, and between each, i have to wait 15 minutes :( sad. 3 more minutes til i can start download my second file!
-- okay so i just watched the first like 30 min or something. that is soooo intense!!! there's one chick in the video that's freaking siiiiick! she was keeping up with the guys and maybe even did a bit more. GET IT GURL!

03. THIS HERE IS ON SOME TRUTHFUL SHIT.
is anything i'm doing brand new?
i love drake. he's the bizznit. he sounds so different when he sings from when he raps. when he sings, he sounds a bit like r. kelly, super smooth voice. when he raps, he sounds rough.

04. it's annoying when people write about themselves in a really vain manner. i don't know if that's how they want it to come out, but it does. it's as if they're trying to tell the world

"hey, i'm fcking perfect. i'm the god/goddess of the world. don't mess with me bc i run this shit."

idk, it pinches at my knickers.

05. these chicas are my idols! so amaziiiiiiing! AND they're gorgeous!
this is also my new favorite song :)



lyrics:

I love to see you walk into the room
Body shining lighting up the place
And when you talk, everybody stops
Cause they know you know just what to say
And the way that you protect your friends
Baby, I respect you for that
And when you grow, you take everyone you love along
I love that you don't fly me away
Don't need to buy a diamond key to unlock my heart
You shelter my soul
You're my fire when I'm cold
I want you to know

You had me at hello
Hello
Hello
You had me at hello
Hello
Hello
It was many years ago
Baby when you
Stole my cool
Cause you had me at hello
Hello
Hello, oh oh oh oh oh

I get so excited when you travel with me
Baby, while I'm on my grind
And never would I ever let my hustle
Come between me and my family time
You keep me humble out of this hype
Cause you know there's more to life
If I need you, you will be here
You will make the sacrifice
Don't fly me away
Don't need to buy a diamond key to unlock my heart
You shelter my soul
You're my fire when I'm cold
Just want you to know

You had me at hello
Hello
Hello
You had me at hello
Hello
Hello
It was many years ago
Baby when you
Stole my cool
Cause you had me at hello
Hello
Hello, oh oh oh oh oh

Gotta feel you and be near you
You're the air that I breathe to survive
Gotta hold you, wanna show you
That without you my sun doesn't shine
You don't have to try so hard for me to love you
Boy, without you my life just ain't the same
You don't have to try so hard for me to love you
You had me at hello!

You had me at hello
Hello
Hello
You had me at hello
Hello
Hello
It was many years ago
Baby when you
Stole my cool
Cause you had me at hello
Hello
Hello, oh oh oh oh oh
It was many years ago
Baby when you
Stole my cool
You had me at hello
Hello

my plague.

i've come to the conclusion that i hate vietnamese people. the old fashioned ones. the ones who think they can judge me because i'm not a fucking cookie cutter vietnamese girl. the ones who make me feel like a disgrace to the culture.

alotta people know that i don't speak vietnamese. i do understand though. just everyday language, the stuff my mom says to me. that's the only vietnamese i know. everything my mom's ever said to me. i didn't learn any vietnamese from anybody else but my mom. i grew up an only child with a single mother. i lost my vietnamese during elementary school. my mom was always working. i was at school. during the first few years of elementary school, i was always sent to a babysitter's. they were vietnamese so i still had my vietnamese at that time. but then this boy attacked me, and i told my mom i never wanted to go back there ever again. she never made me go back. i started staying home alone. so after school, i'd always be outside with my neighborhood friends. eventually, my vietnamese just left me since i only saw my mom at night. she had also started dating this chinese guy, so we spoke english around him. i haven't spoken vietnamese in over 10 years. i can't even formulate a proper sentence in my head if you told me to translate a phrase from english to vietnamese. it's not natural anymore. i know that alotta people, esp. viet speakers, don't get it. yall think it's easy. it's not that easy.

i don't think this defines me as a person. it doesn't make me any less of a person. i don't think i should be talked down on because of it. and even if you CAN speak and it doesn't sound super vietnamese and fobby, adults STILL talk about how poor your vietnamese is. WTF?

i know a few people that can relate.

i talked to B earlier, and he made me feel a little less alone. he lost it when he was super young as well. just because his parents started talking alot of english. B also told me about how a friend's family gave him shit about it and would talk shit about him right in front of his face. they called him "dumb" and "fat". i just can't even believe that! that's bullshit. he can understand as much as me, and that's enough to get by. i think he's learned to deal it with better than me though. thanks B, love you! ♥

i talked to my optometrist a few months ago. she's a real cool chick! she's older of course.. has a kid. but she's badass. my mom is friends with her mom, so we went over to their house. i sat there talking to her about tons of stuff! i thought it'd be weird cuz she's old but we relate soooo much! she's kinda like me in the way where she's not super vietnamese. she doesn't really speak it. she doesn't really speak it to her kid either! we had a long talk about how we hate the old traditional vietnamese people. she told me that when patients come in to get their eyes checked and she knows they're vietnamese, she'll still speak english to them. just because. the next thing she told me is just forever tattooed in my brain.

"This is America. I have nothing to prove."

basically sayin', i have nothing to prove to you. she feels like she shouldn't feel pressured to impress them. to kiss up to them. all that shit. anyone who needs a really nice optometrist, get at me!

i've actually encountered one really big family that didn't care. they were awesome and super welcoming. even the grandma spoke english to me, wtf? haha. but that's just one in a million huh? they made me feel comfortable and at home.

it's just really aggravating and upsetting to me. it makes me really uncomfortable. awkward.. out of place.. etc. maybe i'm just too americanized. i don't know. but i guess i go along with american culture. in the way where a simple hello and goodbye are okay. where when you're a guest in someone's house, the host takes care of everything and the only expectation they have of you is to sit and relax. i just think this way because that's how my mom is. she doesn't care if you speak vietnamese to her. it doesn't change how much she likes you. she likes you based on your character and what you show her. i noticed the people she likes more don't even speak vietnamese to her. they speak english but they act super friendly. she loves that shit! also when we have people over, she likes to cater to them like crazzy.

"want food? want ice cream? lemme get this plate out of your way. are you thirsty? do you want a smoothie?"

that's just where i get it.

does anyone want chili cheese fries??? no? i'll get some anyway.

so i just had so much fun saturday, i gotta brag.

i had an awesomely fun time @ schlitterbahn with phu, anh, and bryan!
on the way there, we put a tramp stamp temp. tattoo on phu!


he walked around all day with that! shamelessly hahaha. look how glittery that crap is! hahaha! sexaaay

we spent our entire day in different lazy rivers and eating the bestest foods ever. all day we ate free bbq, turkey legs, sausage-on-a-stick, chili cheese fries, funnel cake, dippin' dots, lots of coke, beaver nuggets, funyuns, and a chili cheese hot dog. we thought we'd stop eating after we left at like 10pm but we saw buc-ee's and got excited!

"BUC-EE'S! EXIT EXIT!!!!"

badass. we were the laziest bitches ever. we did jackshit but had a ton of fun! :) excited for the next time. wooooohooo! TEAM SCHLITTER! :)

also went to lake conroe with brenda and tony! that was fun too! jet-skiiing and drinking all day. i'm sad i didn't get a tan though. we played king's cup @ the cabin and brenda had to drink beer out of a pot.






REVIEWS

so stanford&i went to a tasty thai place the other day called THAI GOURMET on richmond next to d&b's and cafe layal. we both had never been there, but i was craving thai food. service was pretty good. they were on it! our server was really nice, she warned us that even mild is pretty spicy. our rice came out in star shapes! cuuuuute!!! :) we ordered the hot&sour fisherman's (basically seafood tom yum), green curry chicken, and garlic beef. the "hot&sour" was pretty good. not too bad. i liked it :) i really liked the green curry! i'm not a fan of bamboo shoots, but i was allllll over that green curry! delicioso! the garlic beef was pretty normal. it was good, but i guess i was just in love with the curry that i didn't really care for it. i probably ate about 2 pieces of it and stanford ate the rest. theeeen, we ordered dessert, thai coffee ice cream. i reeeeeally liked it :) the first couple bites were kinda weird, i wasn't sure if i liked it yet. but yeah, delicious. they even gave it to us in a heart shaped bowl thing. :)



overall, i loooved it! i would definitely go back. in houston, i usually only go to thai spice. i'm glad we found another place for thai food :)

in austin, make sure to hit up TITAYA'S THAI CUISINE which is good as hell. wth, might as well review that too. it's on lamar past the triangle, not too far away. we ordered the gang garee (yellow curry), firepot tom yum, and pad thai. aaaaaawesomeness. every single dish was good. service was good too. our server was super sweet. we were referred by our realtor who said it was the best place to goto for thai food! great alternative to the frequented madam mam's. :)

i can't tell which one i like better yet. but they're both faves to me! go go go!!!

i have a mad craving for monkey bread :(

don't be a pussy, mMmkay? - mr. mackey

01. sooooooooooooo.. i'm trying to start running this summer. foreal foreal. sigh. :( i'm making sean and jane do it with me too. i need to get skinny again! i waaaaant to lose like 15-20 lbs and get abs of steeeel! i'm tired of getting shit about how much bigger i am now. i hate you skinny bitches!

^ i wrote that yesterday and decided to finish this later.

TODAYYYYY, i started running with jane :) we went around my neighborhood 3 times which is approximately a mile! i'm so out of shape. i felt like dying :( i also discovered that i can't do crunches the way i used to. sad. so sad. but hopefully, i keep this up for the rest of summer. i'm just glad i even started!

FEEL THE BUUUUURN!

02. how many wedding/engagement rings are lost in our sewage systems? or maybe just jewelry in general. i always see that on tv.

03. oooomg, can you say DRAMATIC? i hate when people are so vain to think everything is about them. the world doesn't revolve around you. things that you think are happening because of you.. aren't. maybe we just need to quit overanalyzing things. i was never a fan of that. we drive ourselves crazy thinking about why things could be. there are such things as coincidences. speaking of overanalyzing, that's what He's Just Not That Into You is about!

04. i watched He's Just Not That Into You today. sooo why not review it? :)



this movie is kinda like Crash in the way where it has like a billion stories where all the people are connected in some way or another. it's an extreme chick flick though. seriously. i don't think boys would like this movie. i had high expectations for this movie since it has a bunch of well known actors in it. i must say i was a little bit disappointed. just a little bit. i liked it though. it was cute and had alot of truth that many of us should probably realize. i like that it wasn't the usual fairy tale. i guess it's a little more real. the only thing i didn't like about it was that it's kinda too slow. kick up the drama pleaaase! a plus is that scarlett johansson is in it and she has huuuuuuge knockers! ryan reynolds is so lucky. definitely a cute movie. i would give it.. 3 - 3.5 stars. :)

10 Chick flick cliches you will NOT see in He's Just Not That Into You


05. btw, i love JOSH because he's my #1. :) he made my blog his homepage on internet explorer. wise decision, young grasshopper :) wise decision indeed!

06. GO MAGIC! BEAT LA!

07. JET-SKIING TOMORROW, WOOOHOOO!!! :) nuff said.

footprints on my face ☁

so while girl-talking today, i've realized i let alot of things happen to me that i shouldn't have. i should've stood my ground and recognized my rights. i've been walked on and let someone else's insecurities dictate my decisions. they're MY decisions. why should anyone else have any control over that? some people are going to be insecure no matter what, and you can't really mold your life around that. it's not fair to yourself. i think some people just need to realize they can't always have things their way. also that their wishes cannot always be satisfied. sometimes people are just gonna be jealous, and there's nothing they can do about it. if you keep letting them have their way, what are you going to have left? will they ever be happy? will you ever be happy?

"Jealousy in romance is like salt in food. A little can enhance the savor, but too much can spoil the pleasure and, under certain circumstances, can be life-threatening."
- Maya Angelou

"Jealousy is a disease, love is a healthy condition. The immature mind often confuses one for the other, or assumes the greater the love, the greater the jealousy. In fact they are almost incompatible; both at once produce unbearable turmoil."
- Robert A. Hienlein

some people like that shit, but just sayin', it's not my cup of tea. it could work for others. i'm just not a big fan. i don't thrive on that crap. some think of it as passion in disguise, but it doesn't make me feel loved.

something sooooorta similar just happened. i'm watching fresh prince and will just said to his mom "so everybody that loves you gotta do exactly what you say?" His mom got mad because she didn't want her sister to marry this guy. she irrationally concluded that her sister doesn't respect her and doesn't love her. basically, she disowned her. tell her whassup, will!

why is it that i get headaches from wearing glasses? the part that pinches my nose makes my head hurt. :(

ma name is lizzy, and i am perfect. i don't work hard, and i deserve it. haha :)

This is the funniest thing ever :)

so today i drove back to houston! whoopie! :] i do miss austin though. packing and loading my car was such a biiiitch. i was like.. how the hell am i supposed to fit all of this in my car. i left behind a big bin. the heaviest bin. josh tried to move it and looked at it with the biggest eyes ever saying

"WHAT THE FUCK IS IN THIS."

haha. kinda like how joey looked @ the turkey in the thanksgiving episode of Friends (the one with brad pitt.. sexyyyyy) and said

"YOU ARE MY EVEREST!"

super heavy lifting! luckily, i got my bitches to do it for me ;) haha jkkkk simon and joshhhh. we had to play tetris with my car in order to fit everything in. those hours of blockles finally came to good use :) haha. driving sucked! my car was filled to the max! my rear view mirror was useless. i couldn't even check my blind spot -_- scary as hell switching lanes to my right. everytime i switched, i switched supppper slow and prayed "i really hope no one is next to me".. BUT i got home safely! :) pshhhh rear view mirrors and blind spot checks.. who needs 'em.

and the friends episode.. sooo funny
part 1
part 2
part 2

so on the long car ride home, i was jammin' to drake, jamie foxx, and elliott yamin. i noticed lil wayne likes to quote himself in songs.

example 1:
jamie foxx ft. lil wayne - number one
"he so sweet make her wanna eat the candy store"

example 2:
drake ft. lil wayne - unstoppable
"your girl hanging from my dick
your girl sanging to my shit
like ah loli loli pop"

i feel like there are more instances but i can't think of anymore.

last night, we had the biggest feast ever. it consisted of.. curry chicken, digiornio's pizza, mashed potatoes, some meat simon made which he burned me making, white cheddar mac&cheese, green beans, and kimchi (gross). our recession-friendly meal :)



damnit, i need a job. no moneys :( and i miss kenobi. luckily, i'll be back after the summa! the hostesses had a slumber party after my last day :) i'm going to miss those grrrls. i felt so lame though. i knocked out at like 2am on the floor. 2 of the other girls went on a whataburger adventure. i'm usually awake for these things! what's going on!? then i woke up @ 7:30am. WHAT. weird, right? people know i usually don't sleep until the wee hours of the morning. last night i slept at 12:30ish. WHAAAAAT. shocker. srsly. i'm turning into a gma.

look what sandy & thao wrote for meeee :) they're so sweeeet!


ENLARGEEEE!

my mom is about to get a facebook -_- i hope she doesn't try to search for me. BLOCK. haha. that would be too weird. o_O

now that i'm back in houston, time for some tacos del juliioooo, crawfiiiish, 101's milk tea, and moooooores. yeaaaaah boooooooy!

I'll buy you nice things that I cannot pronounce, and if you let me love you, babe I will turn you out ♥

Tracks:

1. Let Love Be

2. Know Better
This is the kinda song you sing at the top of your lungs when you're in the shower and you act like you're in a boy band. Tight, right? lol.

3. Fight for Love

4. You

5. Can't Keep on Loving You

6. Don't Be Afraid ★
One of the top tracks! I would marry him if he approached me like this! It's so sweet! So true. So touching haha. He says everything a girl wants to hear. Cutest song ever. I put it on top next to Jamie Foxx's Intuition :)

7. You Say

8. Apart from Me
Another one of those songs you belt out at the top of your lungs.

9. Cold Heart
This song shouldn't have been on this album. This is probably my least favorite song.. it's weird sounding. It's different from all the other songs and not in a good way. Sticks out like a sore thumb definitely. That is my only complaint about this album though.

10. How Do I Know

11. This Step Alone

12. Someday
This song made me cry the first time I heard it. It's about his mom who passed away.
♥ Miss you Simon.

Bonus tracks:

13. Always

14. Good Outweigh The Bad

The bolded songs are my fave songs. They're actually all good though (except 9).
The italicized songs all hit me right here -points to heart-.

He is so soulful; I loooooove it!! :) Apparently, there are other versions of this album with different bonus tracks :( I want it! Why not just put all the damn songs on one album!? I don't even consider him an American Idol. Usually people from American Idol, with the exception of Kelly Clarkson, try to start music careers and end up dying out. Elliott Yamin is definitely an exception! He has an amazing voice, amazing sound, and amazing songs! Soooo underrated! His talent is undeniable! I love the entire album (except 9, but that's minor, haha). I think his words give hope to those who have lost hope in love. What an emotion invoker!! He gives me chills. I looooves it! :)

He made Paula Abdul cry too :) Fast forward to the performance!

my shirt ain't got no stripes, but i can make your pussy whiiiiiistle.. UHHHHH!

i'm currently listening to drake's "little bit" with lykke li, my favorite from the mixtape. that line ^^^ is my favorite line from "best i ever had".



lyrics:

Hands down I'm too proud, for love...
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh

Hands down I'm too proud for love
But with eyes shut it's you I'm thinking of
But how we move from A to B
It can't be up to me
Cause you don't know who I was before you
Basically to see a change in me
I'd be losing so I just ignore you, yeah

But you're on my mind, my mind, my mind, my mind, my mind
But maybe in time, in time, in time, I'll tell you I'm...

A little bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you
I guess that I'm a little bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you

I know you told me break their hearts
But it's you I wanna take apart
And I will never ever be the first to say it
But still I...
They know I...ah ah ah

I would do it
Push a button
Pull a trigger
Climb a mountain
Jump off a cliff cause you know baby I love you
Love you a little bit

You would do it
You would say it
You would mean it
Then we could do it
It was you and I and not only I...

Think I'm a little bit, little bit, a little bit in love with you
But only if you're a little bit, little bit, little bit in lalalalalove with me

I hope they never find out what they already know, know, know
As soon as its official we'll have to let it go, go, go
So we don't confirm the fling
Keep avoiding all the questions
You could teach me many things
I'm just scared to learn a lesson

The pressure's on
Both hearts beat like a metronome
Both in sync like a Justin song
Feels so right but it's just so wrong
I wonder where my world 'bout
Where niggas that I know tryna talk my girl out
And her friends say I ain't the one to go for
She just get jealous cause you always get approached more
Oh well, tell her fall back caught up in some more shit tell her call back
Tell her get a man that ain't cheating on her ass wit a girl that I know yeah tell her all that, that
And as for you I think I know you're the one
The closest I've come
I'm probably...

A little bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you
I guess that I'm a little bit, a little bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh

so today, i'd like to talk about things i hate, just because, i can. teehee.

- flies. refer to previous entries for explanation. sigh.
- itchiness. i'm super paranoid now. wherever i'm itchy, i go crazy because i think my hives are coming back. :( please don't ever cooome back! most miserable time of my life.
- clinginess
- hangovers. at graduations and at work. poo. i hate you thekevin.
- people that honestly believe they have the right to control someone else's life
- people who gain confidence from putting down others. you fuckers do it to me all the time. do not underestimate people.
- cellulite
- my fatness and having people tell me so.
- split ends
- rude people @ restaurants that think the entire world should bow to them. don't fck with people who deal with your food.
- too much sampling from an artist.. and releasing them one after another. ahem, flo rida.
- getting shatty hours @ work
- monthly maintenance fees for bank accts
- rich bitches that get to travel all over the world and do tons of funn things while i'm doing poor activities in this stupid recession
- lakers.

/rant

today, i went to kenobi with roomie simon! i've been wanting to eat @ kenobi for awhile since i'm always surrounded by their food and their stupid menus :( so tempting. we ate kobe beef! mmmm. he's never had it, so he really liked it. so tender and tasty! fave rolls are u&i roll and seven and a half roll. mmmmMmmm. delish. i got two other special nameless rolls. everyone should goto kenobi because it is delicious! being there made me really wanna drink. simon and i ended up drinking a bit there and i had tons of fun with my fellow hostesses. it makes me sad that i have to leave right when i get cool with everyone :( poo. i will misss theeeem.

sex with a dancer & elliott yamin.

the survivors of the destroyed colony keep zooming by my face.. LET ME EAT IN PEACE DAMNIT!



here's the picture of the sign i promised :)
underneath you can see simon's reply:

"spray their penis with RAID!"

LOL, i tell you. LOL.

right now, i'm researching places to eat tonight with girlfriend mel, girlfriend josh, and ugly boy simon. there are so many places in austin i want to try! i love how there are a bunch of non-...big? chain? whatever.. restaurants here. so much variety! mexican? continent/european? japanese? cajuuuun creole? omg idk. :(

so the other day, i was at taphouse with mel, jos, and sim. we had probably the best group discussion ever. like seriously, if you weren't there, you missed out. our conversation was completely about sex. mel and i were wondering if sex styles vary across cultures. like would doing a black guy be tooootttttaallly different from doing an asian?? then i wondered how about a dancer? since dancers obviously know how to move, is that evident in their bedly adventures? or how about those r&b artists that sing about how they'll "turn you out"? (ahem, elliott yamin) are they really as good as they claim? usher? are you all talk? lol. so many questions unanswered!

speaking of elliott yamin.. i love his song "don't be afraid"



lyrics:

I don't mean to bother you, I see you with your girlfriends
Wanna know if you got any plans for the weekend
Can I pick you up around 7, you let me know when.
That's when she says she's got a man...
I don't see a ring on your fingers so what you sayin'
Why your girls look at you so crazy, c'mon, stop playin'
If it's not too much can I at least know what your name is
Girl why you tellin' me you can't

Don't be afraid to fall in love
Cause I don't believe in giving up
Please give me a chance to earn your trust
Cause I know I can be everything that you need
Don't be afraid to fall in love
And don't ever say that is just too much
Cause you never know I could be the one
Girl we're not all the same,
Babe don't be afraid to love

You say that every man is lookin' for just one thing
You say they love you but they really don't know what it means
How can you think that way when you know nothin' about me
I say you runnin' away
I'll buy you nice things that I cannot pronounce
And if you let me love you, babe I will turn you out
I'll stay committed and I promise I would be around
Your life will not be the same

Don't be afraid to fall in love
Cause I don't believe in giving up
Please give me a chance to earn your trust
Cause I know I can be everythin' that you need
Don't be afraid to fall in love
And don't ever say that is just too much
Cause you never know I could be the one
Girl we're not all the same, babe don't be afraid to love

If you try
It's not a waste of time
You will find
That love is what you need in your life
Just let it go
Nobody's gonna hurt you
Don't say no
Tell me what I need to do
To make you see that you don't have to be that way
Just don't be afraid!

Wooo -
Don't be afraid
Don't be afraid
To fall in love!

Don't be afraid to fall in love
Cause I don't believe in giving up
Please give me a chance to earn your trust
Cause I know I can be everythin' that you need
Don't be afraid to fall in love
And don't ever say that is just too much
Cause u never know I could be the one
Girl we're not all the same, babe don't be afraid to love

Hooo -
Don't be afraid!

i would so date him if he sang this to me.

my next album review will probably be his. :)

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kevin just showed me this horrible fugness.

new texas driver's license

wtf is that. it looks like shit.

VICTORY IS OURS! NO MORE MAGGOT LAND!

long yet short day at work. i slept about 2 hours. worked a double but .. a very small amount of hours. kenobi is dying. i need moneys but i can'ts make moneys if you peoples don't gos!

so a couple weeks ago, john made ground beef for tacos. he left it in a pot covered on the stove for awhile. no one noticed because john cooks alot so it just seemed like his stuff everyday. we didn't pay any mind. we did notice the increase in flies though. then one day john came into my room..

"LIZ! THERE ARE MAGGOTS IN MY TACO BEEF!"

ewwwwwwwwwwww.. sooooo he killed the taco colony.. but we still had tons of flies! and they seemed to multiply by the days!!! today was the worst day. i freakkkked out. the kitchen was a hazard zone for me. flies were everywhere, and we weren't really sure where they were coming from now except the trash can.. but we took out the trash more often now. it still couldn't be breeding grounds for flies. john had an assumption that it their new colony could be in the economy packs of onions & garlic in the corner. he sure was right. :(

i made a quick sign on the fridge to motivate us. i'll post a pic of it later because right now, i'm way too lazy to get up from my bed. well anyyyyway, simon was all over that shit! first, he sprayed it down like crazy with raid. then he double bagged his hand and got paper towels to clean it. gross gross grosss.. flies were flying out of it, and i was behind simon with a lysol can to spray them mid air! nooooow, they're goneeeee! there are probably a couple survivors, but we are the victors!!!! we came, we saw, we conquered.

first. jamie foxx is the bomb diggity foreal.

So it's 5am.. I should be sleeping since I have work in the morning buttttt I'm really bored, so I decided to create a blog. I named it after my favorite song on Jamie Foxx's latest album :) "It's just my intuiiiiition.." mmmMmm, love Jamie Foxx! :) Josh and I are going to his Intuition concert in July! How exciting! Words can't even describe how excited I am! I told Peter I'd review music with him so what better album to start off with than Jamie Foxx's!

I'm a huge fan of Jamie Foxx's old live piano stuff. The stuff he performed at his comedy shows. I made a playlist of my faves on youtube. Here's the link :)

JAMIE FOXX PLAYLIST :)

It starts off with the song he sang to Fancy when they got married on the Jamie Foxx Show, and it should autoplay through the rest. Definitely worth listening to. I would pick these songs over his albums anyday.

Okay, onto his album.



Tracks:

1. Just Like Me
This is just a funny, fun song.

2. I Don't Need It
This song is really repetitive.. I don't really like it.. It sounds like Timbaland in the background. I don't really like that either, haha.

3. Number One

4. Digital Girl

5. Blame It
I'm almost sick of this song because of the stupid radio!

6. She Got Her Own
Way better than the original!

7. Intuition Interlude
This is my absolute favorite track! It's just a shame that it's just an interlude and is so short. Short, sweet, and simple. I would love it if a guy sang this to meeee!

8. I Don't Know
This song reminds me of a jungle, haha!

9. Weekend Lover
The girl in the beginning weirds me out.

10. Why

11. Freak'in Me

12. Slow
Really good sex song ;)
The only thing bad about this song is the Dream's annoying "uhh" in the background every 2 seconds. UGH!

13. Rainman

14. Overdose

15. Love Brings Change
One of his piano songs.. sigh :)

You can tell I mostly ignored the more upbeat songs. I enjoy his slow songs more. It just works better. Overall, I love this album. The Dream was one of the producers, and you can definitely hear his influence in some of the songs.

SO EXCITED! :)